All Over The Place

My life is really hectic. I think that every mother thinks that but mine actually is. I mean, I guess it is relative to a person's tolerance level but mine is just hectic.  I have 4 children now, in school, sit on boards, volunteer work. This time last week I only had one and one on the way.  I haven't had much time to really sit and think about what this baby means to me because I don't have much me time but I guarantee you that this will change. I am going to slow down. Yesterday the hubby and I laid in bed and watched Mary Mary onDemand. Sister Tina found out she was pregnant and was NOT happy. She was sad and depressed and didn't know how to tell her husband or her manager. I wanted to cry.  I feel like you should never feel that way about a baby that was made in love.  Her husband Teddy's reaction to her was indicative of a man who is led by God.  He knows that God will provide.  I felt really bad for her though. Then we have Erica, she wanted to badly to perform on the Grammys that she looked for ways to naturally induce baby Zaya.  To each his own but her husband Warryn was like nah buddy ain't gone happen.  When she told him that it was her body and that she will make the final decision, I thought it was extremely selfish and bogus of her. I don't know. Glad that's not my life. Anyway. I am happy for this baby but I haven't been able to get into the really good pregnancy things yet with the exception of my baby shower.  My baby shower planners, Godmommy J'Nai and Supreme Auntie Spice Du Jour April just might get tired of me. Because the baby's gender will be secret (from us as well) until delivery, the theme will just be baby. What that means or translates into I don't know but I started my baby shower pinterest board!

I have not had a baby in 10 years.  WHOA! That just hit me.  I don't even know what to put in to a registry. What is this child going to sleep in? Diapers, fuggitaboutit. They cost a grip! This baby might be green and wear cloth diapers and safety pins. Geez Louise.

Yellow!  One of the colors for my baby will be yellow. That just popped into my head so I let you know.  My mind is all over the place right now. I will be back later when I have it together.